Welcome to 2026. I am so glad to say goodbye to 2025 but also sad to let go at the same time. Last year was a year of great joy and also the heaviest sadness and grief I have experienced in my life as my husband passed away in June and life drastically changed. In October my job ended and I was feeling really lost and struggling to figure out what my life would look like. I spent the months since my husbands passing "running" and just being gone away from home, avoiding things and just existing really. But as I welcome 2026, I have come to realize I need to get it figured out and decide what I want. I didn't work from October until now and figured I wouldn't really be going back into the workforce full time and just traveling but I also know that isn't really what I want as I didn't have purpose for myself and know I need it.
I accepted a full-time position with NOCD that I will start mid January and am looking forward to it. I will be working remotely and able to still travel and work. I have spent a lot of time avoiding being home and just staying busy when I am home. I plan to spend some time this year doing some work around the house, getting underground sprinklers put in, a heat/cool split in the backroom, redoing my bathroom, having a gas fireplace put in the living room. Just investing more in fixing up the areas around the house that could use some improvements and have been neglected over the years.
I have been in Dillion for a couple weeks now and plan on staying here another week or so before doing a rode trip south for a week or so before working my way back up here to watch Vallie while Lincoln has Tubes put in his ears in Missoula and then heading home to watch Amanda's kids for a week while they are gone snowmobiling. Then I will see how my work training is going and plan on heading down south for a month or so. I bought a Intech Dawn Sol this last fall and am loving it. Easy for me to tow and travel with, gives me enough room.
This year I am looking forward to health and healing as my journey continues. I will spend everyday looking for joy, treasuring the memories but I just refuse to live in the pain and hurt without Sam. I am moving forward living the life we planned and dreamed about doing together, it will just look a little different in doing it by myself. Going to enjoy the next couple weeks before I start back to work. Bring on 2026 I am ready for it.
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